What does it all mean, anyways?

I hate making decisions. Anyone who knows me knows that. I can't even make decisions about what movies I want to watch or what kind of ice cream I want. What makes me think I can make a decision about something as important as the rest of my life? Okay, maybe I'm being a tad melodramatic, but seriously. I hate grad school decisions. Every time I think I know what's going on, some new wrench is thrown into the works and makes me even more confused. Like frickin' Waterloo. So, they rejected me. Possibly for a good reason, I don't know. So then I find out I got an NSERC. So I e-mail guy at Waterloo who I wanted to work with and ask if my having funding changes anything. This was over a week ago. No answer yet. So I've more or less given up on Waterloo. Then today I get this e-mail from the President of Waterloo saying all like "Congratulations on your NSERC, please come here. We'll give you $10 000 extra." So WTF? Is this guy just totally dense? Does he not know I've been rejected? Am I unrejected? What the *&!# is going on?!? I'm already so confused about everything in general, this is just adding insult to injury. To make matters worse, I'm starting to lose sleep because of making a decision, and I'm becoming increasingly anxious. Plus I'm starting to freak about my thesis. Oh yeah, and my parents might be moving to BC. I can see the nervous breakdown coming. It's calling to me.

Who wants to sort out this mess for me? (And no, Cara, you're not allowed because I KNOW what you'd say!)

Anyone?

Anyone at all?

Things a person should never do...

Well, there are many things a person should never do. Kill someone. Marry someone because they feel sorry for them. Wear pleated front pants. But the thing I am referring to here is something different. A person should NEVER EVER EVER buy a TV show on DVD that got cancelled in the middle of a season. It can't end well. Case in point, Popular. Now, Popular was a WB show that aired from 99-00 I think (or maybe it was 01-02). In any case, it was awesome. It was my favorite show then, and is still a strong contender for that position today. Tragically, it got cancelled in its second season. The loyal viewers were outraged. Especially the way it ended, man, what an upset! When I found out the show was coming out on DVD, I was sooooo happy! So I bought the first season last year and life was good. Recently, the second season came out, so, of course, I had to buy that too. So I'm watching the DVDs, knowing full well that the series ends abruptly, but it's been awhile, so the exact details are a little fuzzy. So, during the last episode, it's like watching a train wreck. Suddenly, the last episode comes flooding back to memory, and I'm like "shit". So I finish watching the last episode and I'm like "shit". The last episode ends with major things happening to ALL the main characters, with a particularly shocking last 10 seconds. So, the credits roll, and I'm thinking "why oh WHY did I buy the series?". I reckon that if I had remembered how it ended, I would have never bought the series at all. Stupid cliffhangers. Man, when I'm a millionaire and time travel has been perfected, I'm SO going back in time and PERSONALLY funding this show, for my own amusement and satisfaction. So everyone, take a lesson from me, don't EVER buy TV shows on DVD if the show was cancelled mid-season. No matter HOW much you loved the show. It WON'T end well. It'll just make you mad all over again.

The funniest thing...

Check out this site. It's AWEsome! Sorry for using your page Tay, but I figured it'd be funniest!

http://sites.gizoogle.com/?url=http://pac-mantis.blogspot.com/

I'm home!

It's been a long time. I don't really think Montreal agreed with me. It's really French. And kinda dirty. And I got kind of a funny feeling at McGill. And I'm not sure I want to do aging research at this point in my life. But I've got good news! I've been accepted at schools! I've got an offer from McGill (if it has to come to that) and I'm in at UofT. I'm pretty much in at Concordia, and I was rejected by Waterloo (though I'm trying to see if that's going to change). You see, I'm rich now. I have an NSERC for next year! So that's cool. Now maybe everyone will want me more! Ha ha.

Well, hope everyone has a happy St. Paddy's day!

I'm sleepy...

And lonely...

I want to come home...

Sigh...

I'm tired of meeting people...

I miss my dogs...

I'm questioning my life plans...

2 more days...

I need some thinking time. But to do that, I need alone time. And I'm NEVER alone! But I'm lonely. Sucky...

Hello all!

I figured it was time for an update. It is now March. For those who don't know, March is the scariest of all months. March has the potential to be very very very very very good or very very very very very bad. I guess we shall see. March is the month when we find out about scholarships. Grad schools like scholarships. I mean, they like it when you have one so they don't have to grudgingly give you their own money. March is the month when we start getting grad school offers, which is petrifying. And March is apparently the month to travel. Now, normally I like travelling, but this is a little extreme. So, Cara and I leave on Monday (bright and early at 7:30, woo!) for Penticton. We're in Penticton Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. We come back Wednesday night. Cara leaves for Toronto Wednesday night. I leave for Toronto Thursday. Friday and Saturday are in Toronto. Lucky Cara gets to come home then. I, however, have to be in Montreal on Monday, so I'm staying in Toronto Sunday, flying to Montreal early Monday. I'm in Montreal Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and come home late Wednesday night. I'm exhausted just thinking about it. I don't think I have enough clothes for that many days of trying to impress people. Sigh. I see shopping in my future.

In good news, my BBCS abstract got accepted, so I'll be presenting a poster at a conference in Montreal in July. Woo!

Well, I'm off to look at plane tickets. At least they're free!